Time to me was considered constant. Looking at a clock and watching it tick would only be a waste. Life had to happen and the world of autism had to go along for the ride. This was my internal view of things and I finally wasn’t feeling the weight of insecurities that hounded me for a long time.
Getting Oscar brought a breath of fresh air into my life. I struggled with finding any connection with Sawyer other than pushing him on a swing, giving him goldfish, watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, or going for a drive in a car. It wasn’t a very fulfilling existence. I had zero clue on how to connect with him.
However, we had the pug. He was like a bridge for father and son.
With our house on the market and my older two on constant play dates, Sawyer and I were on our own a lot. We had to make ourselves scarce as house showings were in full throttle and with my wife working, we went on many adventures during my summer off prior to the school year starting.
It didn’t matter the time of day because the moment of got Oscar’s leash, Sawyer would ask if we could take him for a walk, It was another routine for autism but one that brought me comfort too.
These walks provided me with many things. I was blown away on how Sawyer knew are neighborhood based on the color of the houses. He could recall where to go based on a house color. He knew what right and left meant due to this. If I wanted to go a different direction, he would correct me by saying, “the brown house is this way, daddy.”
He could take me around a neighborhood based on house colors. It opened my eyes to how bright he truly was and how he must be seeing things in a way that I could never understand.
How much was he taking in during our car rides? Does have an internal grid based just on color? This was fascinating.
Oscar didn’t seem to mind. As long as it wasn’t too hot and we didn’t go to far, the pug was loving these expeditions.
Sawyer’s sense of direction was more than understanding where he was, it gave me hope that he could learn. However, we were learning together.